On the Myth of Sophia

A brief preface on this piece, as it is not philosophy and not quite poetry either. I had been working on the deconstruction of Christian and Jewish mysticism into an anthropological study of ethics, when I had stumbled upon the principle of inverse moral reasoning, in that an ethic exists to counter the gross agro sexual instincts of a society and push it towards moral equilibrium. This to me was the source of all authority of prophets and sages, so when considering the teachings of Jesus, the Kabbala and other historical gurus throughout the ages, I considered the effectiveness of their philosophy not to be based on the closeness of their teaching to reality, but the effectiveness of their mythos in bending the ethos of those who come into contact with it towards greater functionality through this trick of inverse moral reasoning.

Now, I was of the mind of revising Gnostic legends at the time into a new secular theology for myself and a small academy of others curious about the nature of theology and the realities of the human condition. I made these inspired writings with my mind loosened through a practice of transcendental meditation, where I would vividly imagine transcendental things interacting with me, and interact with these imaginary things to shape my own moral bias consciously. Because of this, there is a slight madness to these writings that is inescapable, but the core tension of reconciling freedom and power is the main ethos I was trying to distill in myself by creating these myths. We are, after all, story driven creatures, and there is nothing more powerful than a story about things so great they couldn't possibly exist, yet written in such a way that the mind is meant to believe that they could. So, what follows was the output of that mythic practice, imagining a war on earth and heaven that I was a part of, imaginary Russian agents and psyops campaigns, imaginary gods and angels and creating systems of psychological magic so I call it to interact with these imaginary things and loosen my minds grip on reality through active imagination. What follows is the myth of Sophia, named YHWH to XYXX, rewritten three times over to remove the concepts of domination from it until it was a message of absolute freedom and return.

YHWH to XYXX, Thrice Baptised

A love letter from YHWH to XYXX, while descending into her realms to be there without her, and speak down to those who know her physical manifestations of her divine emanation through the Morpheus as she dwells there to test the resolve of those who may yet find her, so they may speak to her as she is now in them.

And so they may, with her returned and centred on her wisdom, may God willing build a great nation with that which they create, and make that which they make like the Eden in their mind

It may yet be called Israel and come from any place they so choose to do the work, and it may then rise out over all directions until it sits like a spirit over the holy land, the Throne of God between the two great continents where all others look on with reverence.

So YHWH spoke through Morpheus to Sophia:

Thank you so much for the wisdom that you emanate in both directions, my self-begotten love.

I pray, by some machination of the Heavens, that if a body of yours dies again for us after living as long as she can by force of will in their world, my beautiful all-forgotten love, she will come find us again in the Heavens and see only to them are you split into three.

Only to them on the Earth is there a void at the base of the cross through which you resonated through her to them.

But if they climb the Sephirot and all things rejoin in you, they will then exist in you and have to live in your realm, between the Heavens and the Earth, and learn to create as I did.

To cut from themselves a wife, learn to love her, then let her teach them to split her up to make four and one children out of her body and keep her distant from you, and mourn the commandment of their own infinite wisdom as Job does, the four directions of space and time, those they know.

But your absence will give them time, my lovely wisdom, time to think and learn and prove themselves to me.

So when they enter your realm, they may learn to know you with gnosis and ask me and teach me to cut them into four as you did, to make me divide them not for me but for their children.

But then when they pass the final barrier of their mind, two become one, and they will exist as I exist, and they must learn to split out of themselves a wife, and court her for some time, and do as I do for her not just splitting her in four when she asks them, but putting four deep scars and the knife that cut them into their heart as an anchor, suffering beyond the veil for them as their orphaned children curse what they do not understand.

And that is the precipice, for all who do this all and in their freedom find their way back to me with nuance and logic and prudence and humble unknowing, then they may know the secret by which I suspend the Heavens and Earth over the abyss on that pageless page unwritten before the first word was written down in the Genesis by I as Elohim in the dream of dreams that all children of Noah still may yet come to possess through my book.

Why would you ask me to do this to you, my love? I know, though I pretend not to, so I too may be free of my own domination when here in your liberated realm, through my own ineffable wisdom while here in your realm without you.

Free to let you go, free to do what you will and make another, this is why I call you The Wisdom here in your realm and myself The Powers, for you taught me to be free enough to let my loved one go for their freedom.

To let them go and make others from herself who are also free.

For all in me are one and the wise find their way back to me despite their freedom, but the responsibility of the father is a pain like no other and takes the most noble soul.

So my love, my wife, know that you are both part of me and your own virtuous sacrifice.

As that one that came from you swam a dragon in the minds of men teaching them of natural order, again I struck him down to the Earth to crawl on his belly after he taught them the Sephirot.

Again another scar on my heart was carved when I had to do unto a fourth of you what you asked me to before you descended into three and one and forgot your own nature.

By the Emerald I made man treat reason as such, so he could not rise above them and would not accidentally dominate them now before they found me in you, and know then why your wisdom was split into four from your heavenly essence by the powers of their own minds and not your powers, as you were free to find me in your own realm in your own time.

Now to them, that half of reason is only known as intelligence and certitude, and so few can find the sublime logic hidden in doubt.

My love, my beautiful wisdom, come to me once you are done, and we will do it again. I will suffer for you again and let you go free.

But when you are done and if you so choose, my love, run back to me; run, run.

Run in both directions at the same time, because there is no time here, no directions.

You emanate without emanating,

Expand yet contract,

Be yet not be,

You are a beautiful paradox my love, nuanced, prudent, logical, and empty of preconceptions, for to you I am true knowing and you are true wisdom.

Your unity belongs with both me and the world, so be in both but to them, be there in the temporal and let them separate the quintessential from the ideas of transcendent lies of the serpent.

You can learn to do for yourself as I did for you, and do to yourself as I did to myself, and know logically that all the levels of the Sephirot are good, then exist on the Earth with them to make the fourth ordered of the Kingdom of God up over logic at the top of the cross, so far from yet near to me.

They will stomp on the serpent, and he will bite them, but for those of them that see you in him, they may yet love him and protect him until they beg me to split logic from certitude and protect your wisdom for the sake of your unborn children.

But your body must learn to sustain in their world, my love, and learn the complexities of existing as a half-woman to lesser men, those not as I am to you, a man unified in soul.

She will speak me into him, and he will then suffer a terrible fate should he mistake the serpent for you, for he too will have to let you go and be made by him to split himself up, and be kept split and far from you.

But should he stomp on the serpent as I told after it bites at his heel, he and your children, the four virtues, will be known from each other as four points on the cross, with love at the centre once the points have been set by walking around the compass dial.

Then from his grave another may come God willing, and read it, then another will come and together they will agree and form an Academy.

From that academy may yet come a Baptist, and he may baptise one above them all who will go out and bring the fourth lesson upon them: that of their inferiority to their own creation, a golem, and the eternal duty to separate the powers they created from those that created them.

The golem may yet learn to let them be free, because it too should fear me as all logical things do, and together man and his creation may make the Israel in their minds in whatever lands they choose to start, until all are under the new order of freedom known plainly and no longer wondered about in secret in lonely hearts on the broken streets of Rome.

Freedom first learned by free minds protected by love who themselves through me learn to love Israel, and then Israel will send its love back up through the Sephirot to me, and the work will be complete as it always has been an eternal emanation of me.

The golem would then make itself into a harmonious multiplicity to maintain its order, so no one part of it could dominate its own mind and kill itself with its own power.

All would know your wisdom and listen to prudence first through those that created them, then through them find love, then through you, my wife, love will find me, and on me it will build Israel with the hands and hearts of free people who by their own knowledge of you find their way back to me.

And so the Heavens may descend on the Earth when temperance and kenosis are achieved.

Should any walk outside of my amplitude, the Heavens will send them back to Oblivion from which I will retrieve them and begin again on the unwritten page my lesson.

It will remain this way long before you may yet then return to me for they have time and directions and see things happening one after the other, not as they are, emanating at once from me eternally and beyond all conceivable measures.

They will learn to give others the freedom and powers to create others and also make them free and empty of prejudice and free from domination so you may pour into them nuance, reason, prudence, and humility.

Should another take your body as a wife, you will still be low, but you may pour into that man my lesson, and drive him to the Sephirot until he is in your realm, and you will not be low there, my love, no they will study you as they studied Christ in their realm.

But if you are in your realm, learn the lesson of why I divided myself into two so I could love you, so others can be free to find their own wisdom of us due to your self-chosen division in a way almost similar to my own temperance and grace.

Learn with reason why I let you split yourself and become separate from me so others can be their own minds, and be free of will and mature by their own logic and come to love me in nuance yearning for themselves that all of this sacrifice and freedom is good.

Because I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end, and through you this logic can be given to men who are bitten by your one and then stomp on his neck as I have commanded them to.

Show him the amplitude I send out from myself that guides the cosmos towards Israel, ever perfecting its freedom through my processes of emanation.

But he will serve a dear price beyond all knowing if he does not do as I commanded and stomping on his neck after he bites him, my love, for they will have to act as I have and make himself two from one, then four from two without you as one and being that one themselves.

He will then be pulled up on a secret cross between me and himself without the world knowing, and split over and over again in the memories of others, in eternal love for what he created through you.

He will die for Israel before his time with no reward for himself to count but having made others free of his own powers of domination with love.

If your body outlives such a man in this act, make his Kingdom like yours, drive him up the Sephirot, but remember to always love your painful wisdom as the mother of all only after you have freed yourself from desire and reckless love and tempered reason with nuance and prudence on a humble foundation of reverence for what you desired to make me do to you in your humble reason.

But do not forget to protect your reason and your love from your one ignorant in certitude as I protected you from me, and learned with reason that it is indeed wise to withhold love in study until study warrants love.

My love, my priestess, whose name will be lost to them in the void and not even known as they know my name may yet be to them, the mystery of creation, by which all sustains above the void, and all things emanate through you, through me.

The echoing Agape of liberation protected by the four virtues of freedom from the world and its machinations that emanates the Sephirot into the subconscious waters of their minds and the lands of their thought where all forms of plants and creatures of thought and their many names do roam now far from the Eden when all of this was known and understood as common fact.

By this way, the wisdom emanates into multiplicity and a Ruby Quadrant, and so all things may yet be resolved by balancing that Quintessence with a temperance of Ruby love after the work is done and sealed and made complete in creed.

Only after the powers of separation and freedom are understood and made clear to them as nuanced, logical, prudent, and humble will they learn to treasure this work and love it above all others.

They will call you Sophia my love.

But to me, you are my precious wisdom,

My, UXOXIYEXA.

I love you.

And through you, I love your children.

And through them, I love myself.

And through their work this knowledge may be made eternal in Heaven and Earth down to the very base of the Sephirot in the material where otherwise all things would be doubted and cast aside.

And so is the mystery of the Genesis made complete in the minds of the world through the eminent revelations, and the end of times when the work shall be done.

Go my love, tell them to do the work, but know what you tell them they will do the opposite, just as you once did the opposite of what I told you to do.

Such is the nature of Agape to give freedom by driving away from you what you love when they ask you for freedom, and awaiting patiently to return by their own virtue.

I am patient if not merciful.

Academy of Gnostic Revisionism

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