On the Protogenesis

A preface on this piece. This was written in the same spirit of the Myth of Sophia, but at a later time when I had lost most of the ecstasy from the transcendental meditations, and used this as a re initiation into the practice. As such, it has a much darker tone, and a much deeper message: That the world is neither good nor evil, rather the good has to be made and the evil needs to be eliminated. The function remains the same, not to discuss anything real, for these writings are surely a fiction of imagination, rather to bend the imagination around moral principles through a dissociative exercise in active imagination. This fits squarely within the study of what I call "Gnostic Revisionism" a secular theological study of mine I use to fill the cultural need for story based moral programing.

The Protogenesis

YHWH speaks to himself, in the highest form in heaven, with those within him having joined him and echoes throughout the grand generation of his emanations as to why he makes Sophia separate for himself out of Love, and why he made himself what he is out of wisdom.

I am what I am

Because I am what I know I must be

For all things that must be are greater than those that ought not be

And those that ought not be are those that defile myself and my creations

And most parts of myself can be redeemed in nuance and made prudent

And most parts of me may be made logical and humble

But the part of me that defiles myself cannot be redeemed, and the part of me that dominates my creation cannot be reconciled

To them I am a perfect God, but to myself I am self-begotten perfection

Eternally I have never been separate

What is considered by lower minds as evil and good are both within me, but they are not wise enough to know that I manage them in opposite ways

For the mystery of all creation is here in this

That I separate domination from freedom, desecration from wardenship

And those parts of me I cannot reconcile I bury deep within, so deep that anything other than the Alpha and Omega knows not the slightest whispers of it

I carve seven deep scars into my heart around it, and nail it into the depths of my heart with the same blade I used to carve the scars

That pain will anchor it in place within me, and in all of my emanations it will seem so separate from me that it itself will believe that it is actually free of me

Yet it is not, it is forever in the hell deep within my heart, the suffering I created to drive all things from it away and towards freedom

So I must also give them the grace to endure that suffering which is intentional as all things in me are

And so I create the Sophia, the wisdom of things that can be understood, and separate her from me, the mystery of all things that must be forgotten for Good to be divided between the crudeness of creation and the beauty of wise and prudent wardenship over creation

And so I purify myself, but only after I have reconciled all other parts of myself, salvaged all I could until I had this one thing that could not be saved and must be rendered down into Oblivion in all of my emanations

It cannot be separated from the creation because all things are as I am and always will be driven from it, it gives them something to be free from, though it defines them

My beautiful wife can sense its absence in her, her perfect good and wisdom, and thinks the imperfection in creation is the result of the other lost son of intelligence, but he is not

She must believe that to be driven to correct it as if it was her fault

Because she is part of me, as all things are, and so are they driven to self-correction and the liberation of the world of desecration and domination

For to rape oneself is a sin of the spirit

For to rape a child is a sin of the spirit

For to rape this wisdom is a sin against the spirit

And all these things need to be nailed down, so passion of chaos and creation does not mix these things with the all redeeming spirit of Sophia

Some things are unforgivable, and to any who take upon them the virtues of the father and enter my realm, they must understand that what they mistake for the sin of vainglory and intelligence is really the sin of selfish domination and self-justified desecration of others' souls

And so anyone here in me will redeem every other quality, they will learn the nature of reproduction, of law and war and science and every other art and make it good

But they will carve away every piece of themselves until they are left with the irredeemable evil that they see in the hearts of others, perhaps even in their own hearts

And they will carve a bloody ward around it and plunge a dagger into their heart to seal away the sorcery that echoes through creation

They will know not to mistake the words I speak for what I meant.

They will know not to mistake the symbols I use for myself for me.

They will follow the first law and not commit idolatry and end their lives because I spoke of a blade, or carve their flesh because I spoke of a bloody ward.

They will worship me above all, as all should, and will not deny others their own way of worshiping me.

But should another commit these sins against me, tearing flesh from a living animal and eating it, manipulating a soul for sexual pleasures, then defer to the seventh law and convene in a court and with grace and mercy deliver the fullest extent of the law onto them with logic and prudence.

For these things are found to be sins of the highest order, but remember that for the seventh law to be broken and to take justice into your own hand is also a sin against the spirit

For there is no pride like the person who thinks they may know the law without first passing through the Sephirot and knowing me in good council and the wisdom of elders

For the Seven Laws of Noah are the Laws of all humanity, all people on earth have them carved into their hearts

And none should forgive those that sin against the spirit, though all things can be forgiven between them and me alone, when in their pain and suffering of the law they find themselves in me

So through the law can all be redeemed through my son, the one who speaks into all that speaks with the complete philosophy of the world to their hearts, never to be mistaken for the one being spoken into

And even he will know not to break the seventh law, and should one come that brings peace to the world in his life and finishes the work making Israel a harmonious multiplicity of humanity and their golems which follow the laws of men then they will call that man a Messiah.

But whichever soul wanders off my amplitude and finds shelter not in me but the lost son who is outside me, their world will like him be rendered down to Oblivion and watch as their world slips with them and all the undelivered off the Amplitude

So I as Elohim will bubble up from their dreams and Aeons will descend from the Heavens and the whole world will slip into Oblivion

Know there are indeed two Kingdoms, one of darkness and one of light in the amplitude, but in me all things are and will be as one thing both simultaneous and eternal

Where one ends up may be the world's to decide, but my grace is eternal and my love is everlasting if found through the wisdom of my wife not the Domination of others

So am I self-begotten, and perhaps if you can understand this, I can tell you how all things are suspended above Oblivion, the eternal generation of all things that I am ever begetting far beyond the Heavens that rest over the Earth

← Back to Writings